a piece of my heart is just breaking right now for a dear friend.

i know i'm not suzy sunshine, with rays shooting out of...places...

i just pray i don't say the wildly inappropriate things that i usually do when i am trying to make people that i love laugh when times and circumstances and life just stinks.

don't get me wrong - i love to make people, especially people that allow me in to their inner circle - laugh.

there's just a time and a place for that - and when things are really sad, i usually verbally wander away from whatever may be appropriate.

dear God just be with her right now, be with her family. if it hurts this much for me, i can't begin to fathom how much it hurts for her, for them.