i'm going to miss being able to see jason c. at random times. every meeting time i've had with him post-graduation (and before really) has been such an adventure- i've highly highly enjoyed.

he's going in to the navy. dave is leaving for iraq within hours i can count without much effort.

and i am again overextending myself. i thought it would be harder to do outside of the college world. but it's just as easy. my new vice is distance. stage managing a show in cleveland while living and working in the pittsburgh area cannot be an intelligent choice. so why did i make it? i still feel called.

what are spare moments? thinking about that lately...it seems that they [spare moments] are moments that i set aside for me-time that i choose instead to usually give to others, or at least not give to something for personal gain- like, reading a book in the park, or stopping by just to give a tired friend a hug, or staying awake just a little bit longer and listening to someone who needs to get it out.

i don't know how many spare moments i have left in me right now, or this week.

this isn't one of them. i should be in bed.

and the shoulds and the actually's collide.

i am unbelievably selfish.

well, first bachelorette party under my belt. it's a good thing i drove myself, otherwise i would have had a lot more to drink.

i like still being friends with people i went to middle school with. even if i don't like youngstown at all.

rascal flats should have had the theme song for the night.

why do guys in bars think "you should hang out at the holiday inn" is a good pick up line? is there an honest thought that i am going to say "ooh baby yeah i bet the holiday inn has so many things to do like you"? instead, i say "what's there to do there?" and then, the wonderful girls say, "ooh we are leaving now!" and i say, as i walk away "nice to meet you anyway".

i don't wanna get married for a long long time. well, semi-long time. like, multiple years, but maybe not double digits worth of years.

i want to dance.

Well, I'd like to visit the moon
On a rocketship high in the air.
Yes, I'd like to visit the moon,
But I don't think I'd like to live there.
Though I'd like to look down at the earth
From above,
I'd miss all the placesand people I love,
So although I might like it for one afternoon,
I don't want to live on the moon.

~the wise words of kermit the frog.

"Maybe that's all a family really is; a group of people who miss the same imaginary place."